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Hello ! I`ve been reading this forum the past few days and seems that are a lot of knowledgable members here. I hope someone can help me with some explanation or advice. Thanks to all who will take the time to read through this I will try to make it as short as possible. So in short...
In my early 20-s I have tried a supposedly money spell. I drew a half circle opening upwards, underneath a half circle opening downwards, a vertical line connecting them with a vertical line on a banknote with cinamon oil. I experienced quite an abundance on money for pretty long. This might have contributed...dont know
I used lot of drugs in my teens after that almost exclusively weed but quite often..Bad karma maybe? Attracting entities..no clue..
I have worked in the casino industry as a dealer many years...and also I was a professional online poker player and sometimes live poker player for about 5 years...bad karma maybe.../good dealers can affect the outcome on roulette and I was good.../
I was seeing a clairvoyant or witch or whatever she was since I was like 26. When my things turned bad I told her about the spell with the note and she told me its 7 years good luck after 7 years very bad. So she told me I need put the note in an envelope, seal it, put 3 drops of blood on it and keep it. I was stupid enough to do it...and later it got lost somewhere...
I have possible bought a cursed piece of land. There was a hut on it and on the back my friend noticed an upside down cross painted and I found some chains in a room.../ I sold it already/
One day I fininished a Zhong Yuan Qigong course with a bad teacher probably..The emphasis was on the Big Tree excersise...I practised that diligently but not the meditations. One day I was practising on the piece of land and had sensations as if entities were leaving my body...
I travelled back to the UK to continue my casino dealer job.Accidentaly I smoked quite a bit of synthetic weed. I didnt know what it was. But when these things happened I didnt do any drugs. Kept practisin. Syncronicities happened..and I won quite a bit with these while gambled in casinos./ roulette and such/. Kept practising and after one day I was practising and I had rushes on my face afterwards. I started to act weirdly so my friends and my sister came over. I had syncronicites happening...I thought I opened my third eye....I have seen people with glowing eyes.. /I also "infected" my sister somehow as well...She went insane also a bit late At the good parts I have also thought I have seen God...I remember I faced the devil also....more times...I thought I have to do excorsism so I tried..got hospitalised..Traveled home for treatment. Got diagnosed with Bipolar disorder.
Got out. I got in touch with online Christians. They seemed to expell demons from me. Had voices in my head. They identified themselves as Belial, Baphomet...etc...I thought the demons were coming in through my opened 3rd eye. I thought I kinda have to save the word by taking the demons and get rid of them later...
Went in and out from hospital a few times...always because I stopped my meds.
Now I have been stable for like 1 year, my doc stopped the antipsychotics. It was fine..
Researched the net....I thought I might have had a stopped awakening and a guy said if u go through it you can get normal again..he also said dont do it alone..I was desperate to get well..so I practiced holotropic breathwork and qigong this time with a meditation...also chakra clearing and balancing..I got energized a LOT...I LOVED meditating...everything became vivid.. I started to notice every small detail of nature and was amazed...when I did qigong I started to see the particles in the air...or whatever they are...also seen some heatwave looking things in the air...
Than I thought people are making angry faces at me....than again I thought I have to save the world...this time a bit differently..As a side effect my herniated disc either got healed or got 100%ly symtomles...and still almost is...I`ve tried to apply things from Master Choa Kok Sui`s practical self defense book...auric shields. I think they worked.
My family told me I was weird so shall go back to my doc. I went...1 month of work...antipsychotics again...these are on minimal again...and will be cancelled soon...
I would like to be healed both mentally and physically...so I would like to look into occult...I do LBRP now...2x a day....not much else. Reading Modern Magick from Donald Michael Kraig now.
These was it in nutshell...thanks if you reached this point! :)
So my questions would be..
1.Is this because of bad karma? or did I curse myself with that money or the blood ritual...or the land? If so....what can I do to reverse or stop it?

1. What practises can I do and mix to be on the safe side?
   
2. Any explanation what exactly happened would be nice.
   

Any advice is much apprechiated! Also if someone knows a person who is expert in such cases could be helpfull...
Thanks again and sorry about the bad spelling.....English is not my 1st language..